Last month I posted about not posting and about being a failure in life.
Well, this month, although I haven't gotten a job and I'm extremely stressed about tuition and textbooks for next year, I've accomplished something.
This month I've take NLS (twice), AWSI and WSI. With this, I can be a lifeguard and teach swimming lessons, if I get hired.
I continuously say " I will..." do this and "I will..." do that, now I should start saying " I am.." and kick myself in the arse to actually go and DO something. Why is it that I have never fully learned and realized (and taken to heart) that having been what I have been all these years (starting somewhere in high school) that nothing comes out of doing nothing.
I may be late for a lot of things, but at least I'm ready to start.
Well...I'm looking at this space and realized my last entry was about 3 years ago. I've actually got a lot to say but I don't know how to put them into sentences that doesn't become meaningless ranting.
I guess I really want to change. The "me" right now is in every aspect, a failure, so I want to do something or be something or just...change.
I also came up with the idea to draw a manga (one of these days) but since I'm actually trying to do something about it I guess I can write the story out here and feel productive.
Another goal I want to reach for is to sign up for Artist Alley at Anime Evolution in 2012. I've got a friend who will help me attract customers with her awesome (secret) cosplay so if I do pick up the courage to do this I need to discipline myself.
Ill be posting useless information that only I need to use to keep track of my stuff.
Haro ball figure
Chara fortune Destiny
-Shinn ( red eyes)